THIS WEEK'S WORDS come from "You and I" by Stanley Moss:
wanderer, create, guilty, particle, painter, potter, mercy, straw, end, follows, clay, all
Joe found himself wanting to create again.
He went on this trip, because he was bone tired of his life. He
needed a change, to be refreshed, to see life with hope again. It was
very bold, this move he made, but he felt he'd fade into the background
unless he colored himself in.
He had quit his job, which seems irresponsible on the surface, it was
steady and paid his bills. It also drained him. He heard his father's
words in his head, "son, you don't have to love what you do, you do need
to take care of a family though" Thing was, he didn't have a family yet
despite wanting one, he didn't own a home yet or even a dog. If not
now, when?
Is there ever a good time to wander looking for meaning? He supposed
as scary as this was, now was his time, so he went. In his car, with
his savings. To see what he could see.
It had been hard to leave his mother though, only a year after Dad
died. There was guilt as he looked into her sad eyes, but he knew if he
didn't risk now, he would never be able to go.
Following the road ahead, with the idea of seeing as much as he could
along the way, he watched his mother's waving hand get smaller in the
rear view mirror. He wanted to meet people, and feel what it was like to
let the moment lead you.
He didn't anticipate missing his potter's
wheel so much.
When he read about people doing this kind of trip, he never heard of
one who missed their creative sides. If he painted he could take along
supplies and paint on the road. But he was a potter, and didn't realize
how empty his hands would feel without clay oozing under his nails, and
how calming it was to watch the wheel go round with a piece of mud
rising with just his hands to guide it. He was a "potter" but no one he
encountered would know that now that he was a "wanderer" . He didn't
realize how much identity mattered when meeting people. He didn't
realize how much being creative meant to his soul.
Mercifully he knew one day he'd return to a more stable life, one
where a studio had dust particles floating around in shafts of sun, one
where he could lose himself in making. He couldn't go there yet as he
was not settled inside himself. To be content was a goal, to know one
had made a choice to be in one place over another. To be sure one hadn't settled there
because it was expected was his goal. He had something to experience, something to
learn but not knowing what made it unnerving..
He suspected he'd find it though, and one day return to his wheel, to a home, to himself.
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3 comments:
Love your writing....wonderful story! I think it touches on those yearnings we all get from time to time, especially when young, and we want to cheer this guy on! Hope you are getting some cooler weather - rain here today. Definitely feels like fall! xx Karen
Lots of feeling in your writing. I feel his guilt by not staying to help his mother. I feel his quest to find "something". I feel his fathers words about what was needed. You have the ability to place a picture in ones mind of what's going on.
Traveling Suitcase
Lovely image with a lovely story.
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