what is this feeling, ennui?
I know just what that feeling is like. Your mind is full of what you want to make but you don't want to do it. When that happens, I sit on the porch and read something or meditate. It can go on for days but the muse always comes back. Something tips the balance and you must work again.
That thing that tips the balance from, "I just don't feel like it" to " I must go make that " is magical. And interesting... it's one of the questions I ask artists. What takes you from meh to must make?
I hear people say, don't wait for a feeling or inspiration, just do it. Do the work. They say it emphatically!
I'm learning new words, self empowering words and will practice them right here on the 'just do it' dogma.
I am learning it's okay to disagree, even with printed word, even with dogma, even in the face of someone who intently tells you they are right, even to family members. There is power in those little words. The power of self respect, of believing in your thoughts and feelings. I don't need to convince anyone that I'm right, because it's just my opinions, what is truth for me.
While it would be great to always just walk in the studio and start making something, what if it's equally important to listen to the quiet voice that says, not now, not yet, be quiet a moment. Your power is not lost, it's rebooting.
Feel free to disagree